Part of me has enjoyed doing some of the tasks tonight; part of me has been left feeling quite sad by them. It's specifically the rewriting history task that's bothered me. I've always tried to live a life of no regrets, but still find myself asking "what if" and being held back by my fears. I know it's not healthy, and as much as I try to stay present and live in the now there are still those doubts that niggle. I wonder if I am where I'm meant to be today, or had the right mentor or opportunity appeared in my life at the right time could I have made something more of myself. It's perhaps something for me to mull over on my own though so I'm not going to blog about it at length.
I was faced with more bad news today. Dear Universe, if you're holding out on me for a reason, now would be a good time to show your hand. I need something positive to grab on to.