I should be celebrating reaching the half-way point of this 12 week journey, but I've hit a pretty major bump in the road today. Not one I haven't had to deal with before, I should add, but it's pretty major nonetheless and is going to be difficult to work through. It also smacks of irony after yesterday's post.
You see it turns out my God of Abundance actually was listening to me. I declared yesterday I wanted less in my life, and he promptly delivered — unfortunately several months earlier than planned. My workplace is struggling again and has been forced for a second year to reduce our working hours and salaries. I'm not ready for this. Yes, I asked for more space to write and create and for less financial commitment, but this was supposed to happen after I had spent a few months saving and preparing and squaring some debts. What are you playing at, Universe? I want to scream at you! Are you trying to ruin me, or are you trying to tell me there's something I'm supposed to be doing right now that's more important than waiting for several months?
I know I'll get by. I somehow coped last year. And look at the success that came out of that period of enforced hardship. Already I've made calls and have an interview lined up for Wednesday for a second job that would more than make up for my loss of earnings if I'm successful; in fact, I might end up better off. The only issue is the fact I'll be sacrificing all of my spare time by working a 60 hour week the whole winter. My creativity is on the verge of suffering in a major way. Then again, it is only a 10 week contract. Maybe this is intended to set me up ready for exciting things next year? Maybe if I can save some of that extra money to see me through the spring I could do great things with all the extra time?
Yes, that's it. Stay positive. This could work out. Try not to panic.
K
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